I spent 2 years in victim consciousness... here's what I learned
Stop. Stop believing you’re a victim. Stop pretending that you have a weak connection to your inner knowing.
You want to believe you’re a victim because the ego demands a reason, a rationale — explaining why the issue is maintaining, whatever it is.
But when we remove the labels — and therefore the energetic charge — which we’ve assigned to pieces of ourself or parts of our life (in an effort to create meaning), we neutralize what used to be problems, pains, and predicaments.
The inclination toward victimhood may have arose from a distinct aspect of experience (e.g., circumstances, pain, disease, etc). Maybe you were cheated on or robbed of money. Maybe you were in an accident. Maybe you simply can’t find higher meaning in loss, trauma, or death.
Often, it’s through a more ingrained, even unidentifiable aspect of self (personality, heredity, disposition, triggers, traumas, tendencies, emotional-energetic blockages, mental fogginess, etc) through which a sense of victimhood emerges.
Victim consciousness emerges from repeated negative variations of vulnerability which, through painful catalysts, activates the reptilian monkey mind which then defaults to the old primal self who lived as a helpless — often inferior, under-attack — personality spending its limited life protecting itself from its imminent mortality.
Over time, we become attached to feeling attacked.
That’s all victimhood is — an egoic but unfounded addition to inferiority.
But here’s the truth: until you find a rationale — one that you can comprehend, derive meaning from, and especially do something about — you will continue cycling in and out of a victim mentality, at least in my experience.
As humans, we want to be able to justify why things are as they are. Even if we’re able to accept, trust, and surrender outwardly, eventually the mind will wander and wonder within.
The mind will process your healing; but it’ll still question things in subsequent days as new obstacles arise.
“Why aren’t I in a better situation? Why does this have to persist? Why me? What am I gaining from this?”
The ego loves to retract to old versions and give you shit about how weak or wrong or fucked up it wants you to admit you are.
As long as you choose to appease ego — as long as you feel victimized — you’re left with a pile of dogshit in the form of:
Self-defeating thoughts, low morale, and fleeting motivation to even try (to innerstand, to heal, to trust, or to surrender)
An apparently, inexplicably random and chaotic life consisting of more downs than ups with recurring chapters of really bad luck
An incorrect belief that you’re destined to remain lifelong prey to some awful negative force, horrid cosmic curse, Higher Self-induced mistake, or unending disease
The good news is three-fold:
You can only FEEL like (or PLAY) a victim, but you can NEVER be one
You’re actually okay — it could be worse and a lot of people have it A LOT worse than you
You can succumb to victim consciousness (and might as well explore the dark depths of the abyss while you’re there) for as long as you want, but will need to come up for air sooner or later
As a bonus, find solace in the fact that we do live in an unconditionally-loving universe.
BUT, when we make the mistake of believing that “unconditional love” equates to “no hurtful or negative experiences for apportioned holographic fragments of self” then we carry flawed expectations of love — and for that matter of existence, exploration of consciousness, and knowledge of self — which are non-beneficial for an ascending being.
Evolution of consciousness occurs through resolution of plight… through persisting forward despite trials… by choosing to remain steadfast and strong in the face of barriers. That’s how the Soul grows.
You need three things in order to ascend above the frequency in which victim energies swirl:
BE really resilient, painfully patient, and steadfastly strong
SPEAK differently about your “condition” and BELIEVE it’s part of a grander plan ultimately guided by love
DO everything to extract as much knowledge, meaning and depth as possible as you work through your difficulties
You are not a victim. You are a powerful creator. You are the Source of it all. ◾
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With ♥, Michael